“Do you still have feelings for your first love?”
For the first time since I have known love, real love, you’ve been an undeniable part of my life. Even if we weren’t talking, everyday was spent thinking of you. And for the first time since that love become a part of me I feel nothing for it. I’m moving to the same city, for the first time, first time single, and part of me doubts I’ll even let you know I’m there. I’ve lost something. I’ve lost the only person who has ever loved me back with everything. Someone that put me on a pedestal like I had put the other before him up. I was so hurt, so messed up still. I didn’t know how to give my heart away again. I let him have me but I made sure anytime feelings of ecstasy were being rushed to my heart I’d pull out my tourniquet, fully stopping all feelings. I didn’t see this coming. Will I always be chasing the last thing that made me happy?
